The angry breast cancer survivors

Women with post-treatment maladies find no one really wants to hear ‘downbeat’ stories

by Anne Kingston on Thursday, November 20, 2008 8:00am - 32 Comments

The angry breast cancer survivors

Breast cancer awareness month, also known as October, came and went with scant attention paid to a new, groundbreaking book: After the Cure: The Untold Stories of Breast Cancer Survivors by Emily Abel and Saskia Subramanian. Then again, stories of women coping with life-altering, post-treatment maladies have remained “untold” for a reason. As Abel, a professor of health services and women’s studies at the University of California, and Subramanian, a sociologist at the UCLA Centre for Culture and Health, point out, the topic runs counter to the “celebratory breast cancer culture,” one filled with inspiring narratives of good health and spiritual rejuvenation.

That wasn’t Abel’s experience after radiation and chemo for breast cancer in 1993. Her doctor told her recovery would take a year; to this day she still suffers from fatigue. She began noticing a “cone of silence” around the subject of health when talking with other survivors: “Everybody was supposed to say ‘I’m fine, I’m great’ and of course we were fine—those of us who survived were really very lucky and we did consider ourselves fine. But we began to realize we also had other problems that no one was paying much attention to.”

After the Cure provides voice to breast cancer survivors thrust into a netherworld of chronic disability, afflicted with symptoms that include numbing fatigue, joint pain, mouth ulcers, mobility problems and severe cognitive impairment dubbed “chemobrain.” Their distress is compounded by doctors who dismiss their complaints as psychosomatic, and once-supportive family and friends who urge them to get on with their lives.

The fact more women survive breast cancer permitted this pioneering study, says Subramanian. Yet they had difficulty finding funding, which ultimately came from the respected Susan G. Komen Foundation. “We were told it wasn’t a real phenomenon,” she says, noting she wasn’t surprised: “It’s the history of women’s medicine that we are hypochondriacs and hysterics and malingerers. And that is such an inappropriate way of managing the health care of half of the population.”

Eileen Rakovitch, a radiation oncologist and chair of the breast cancer program at Toronto’s Sunnybrook hospital, views After the Cure as an invaluable addition to breast cancer literature, and intends to give copies to colleagues. “Although it’s important to emphasize breast cancer survivorship because mortality is declining, I don’t think we want to make it too glamorous and to make survivorship mean everything is as good as, and in some cases, better than before diagnosis because that’s not true for many women,” she says. One of her patients, a foreign correspondent, had such severe cognitive dysfunction she was unable to return to work.

Raising awareness is their goal, says Subramanian, who has produced a documentary, Beyond Breast Cancer: Stories of Survivors. She wants doctors to inform women undergoing toxic remedies that there can be serious long-term problems in a small number of cases. It’s a difficult balance, Rakovitch notes: “At the time of diagnosis, women are so overwhelmed. They’re interested in surviving those two to three years rather than worrying about their cognitive status in three years.” She too would like physicians to inquire more actively about post-treatment symptoms and validate women who come to them with complaints. Medical acknowledgment is crucial, says Abel: “Without validation, employers won’t listen, family members think they’re malingering, and people can’t get disability benefits.”

Many women interviewed in After the Cure bristle against the unrealistic cultural expectations placed on a buoyant recovery. One speaks of coming to terms with malingering lymphedema and chemobrain: “So I don’t see them as symptoms anymore; I see them as, ‘this is how my life is now. It sucks; it will always suck.’ But if I spend all of my time thinking how rotten it is, I’m not going to have any life.” Rakovitch believes post-treatment life is the next step in breast cancer research, noting studies are under way on the use of Ritalin to ease chemobrain. Karen Fergus, a Toronto-based psychologist who works with breast cancer patients, is co-authoring the first study of body image and sexuality among survivors. Abel and Subramanian are examining the use of acupuncture to alleviate fatigue. The lives of women living after The Cure can’t be tied up neatly with a pretty pink ribbon quite yet.

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  • Jerrine Lieurance

    I was very interested in the information about the after effects of breast cancer treatment…..and how we feel and the high expectations of those around us………
    I could not agree more……I felt well for about 5 months after 6 chemos and 33 radiation treatments, lots of neupogen and neulasta……then slowly very tired….dizzy, chemobrain kicked in……for a year it went on .
    My blessed primary care doctor sat with me and we talked about my hair , he was encouraging in all aspects of my recovery… I did tell him I would come out of this as a hypochondriac…..
    Unfortunately two years later, I was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer (three years ago)……….that s another story but after chemo,colon resection and liver ablation………I dont think I will ever feel good again……………..and I am realizing that my quality of life is not great…………however we do need to go on and play the game or we will molder away………………I take a few weeks off from my regular life and just stay in bed at times, and let people wonder ……….when there s a happy cure for this , I want to be the first one to have it…………………..The best way to feel better seems to be exercise,,, and walking is a good way to go…….and keep our weight down………………………….The Lord be with you all who are going through all this…….it s not fair but no one said life would be fair…….

    • Sherry

      My heart goes out to you. I hope that you find some easing of your symptoms soon.

  • Anna Keppa

    I sense that the editors of this magazine do not understand the difference between being muzzled (the premise of the photos) and not being listened to. The difference is NOT subtle. Shame on you for not knowing that.

    Millions of other cancer patients rightly suspect they will never feel good again, but they don’t run to a magazine to bleat they are being “ignored” in favor of Happy Talk.

    The media are filled with “bad news” — it’s their stock in trade. If After the Cure wants to argue that it’s being ignored, it needs to make a case, not just trot out anecdotes.

    Free clue: claiming “it’s because we’re women” or that people aren’t “aware” of breast cancer is threadbare to the point of being ridiculous.

    Suck it up, ladies. You’re no different from anyone else.

    Here’s hoping you all get well. Not blaming others for your plight is a good start.

    • Laurel McCartney

      To Ms. Keppa, I normally wouldn’t waste any of my short time left on this earth on comments like yours and I don’t know what prompted you to advise someone like me to suck it up. I’m not sure you can possibly imagine what it took to go through a radical mastectomy, physcial therapy to recover use of an arm, 6 months of devasting experimental chemotherapy, a bone marrow transplant, 7 weeks of radiation…..and all of this not knowing if I’d even survive the treatment let alone have any kind of life afterward. The loss of a career. To begin to “recover” and then live with chemo-brain, which is very akin to early onset Alzheimers, excrutiating joint pain, instant menopause (I was 36 at the time), the loss of never being able to bear children and living with the fact that my dedicated husband will not know enjoy the pleasure’s of fatherhood. To develope a new carrier with a much lower capicity to function. I now have chemo-induced cardiomyopathy with an average life span of 5 years and I’m 2.5 years from diagnosis.

      I was the poster child for being responsible for my own recovery. I spent 2 years traveling around on behalf of the Canadian Cancer society as a motivational speaker. I volunteered for fund raising, peer counselled other cancer warriors and their families. Bared my chest to the husbands of other women who wanted to see what it would look like post surgery. I even got to be “Sunshine” girl for the Calgary Sun paper to try and debunk the myth that mastectomies would somehow render a women sexless. I was and still am very postive. HOWEVER….people do not want to hear the other side of treatment. The stories expressed in “After The Cure” need to be told. We survivors have earned the right to tell ALL sides of our journey. Not just the “thank God we lived”. You have no idea what it cost then and what it continues to cost many of us to be able to say that. Shame on YOU.

  • Allyson Brooke

    I am a breast cancer survivor. My survival includes chemo-induced cardiomyopathy, fibro myalgia and chemo-brain. Would I have chosen a different treatment protocol if I knew then what I know now? No. My first reaction when I read your article about life after treatment was…you are so right but don’t tell anyone! Why? Because I have known women who have chosen to not treat their cancer because their hair would fall out or the surgery would be too disfiguring or because they were too afraid of what life would be like during treatment. Where are they today? Two dead, one still living. Successful treatment needs a positive mindset, support from loved ones and a 100% commitment to your chosen treatment protocol. With compassionate friends and family, survivors should consider themselves lucky that they have the opportunity to live with the fallout. The other option is unacceptable. I am one of the lucky ones. I am a survivor surrounded by compassionate loved ones.

    • Laurel McCartney

      Ms. Allyson Brooke – I am also a breast cancer warrior (11 yrs now from a Stage 4 Metistatic diagnois) who is 2.5 years into a dilated cardiomyopathy diagnosis. Average life span 5 yrs, apparently. The only “cure” now is a heart transplant. My heart function is seerly reduced and am not eligible for transplant due to prior cancer history. Talk about catch 22, LOL. I would be very interested in getting in touch with you as our peer group is a small one.

      Laurel McCartney

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  • Wendy Raphael

    It’s not clear where the source of Anna Keppa’s anger truly lies, but in her Comment, she unambiguously spews her venom towards the editors of Macleans as well as breast cancer patients.

    A more careful reading of the article would have enabled Ms. Keppa to recognize that, counter to her accusation, women did NOT “run to [Macleans] to bleat they are being ‘ignored’.” The article was on a BOOK, After the Cure, which explores “a topic [that] runs counter to the “celebratory breast cancer culture,” one filled with inspiring narratives of good health and spiritual rejuvenation.

    Perhaps worse than her careless reading of the article is Ms. Keppa’s apparent ignorance concerning the nature of breast cancer, as well as that of breast cancer funding. As a breast cancer patient, I can only assume Ms. Keppa has never herself had breast cancer. If this is the case, it’s impossible not to feel happy for her. Yet, it’s also impossible to take seriously her tirade against breast cancer patients, the authors of After the Cure, and Macleans.

    The problem isn’t that breast cancer patients feel they are the ONLY ones who “will never feel good again.” The problem is that neither the medical community nor the culture-at-large tolerates hearing about the lifelong serious and disabling conditions that are caused by the very cancer treatments purported to bring about a “cure.” If you have access to medical journals, you will find that only very recently has the medical community even begun to look into the deleterious effects on breast cancer patients’ quality of life after chemotherapy and radiation treatments. And even then, it is only a very tiny segment of the medical community that is paying any heed to such concerns, for which funding is near impossible to get, given the enormous profits pharmaceutical companies and the medical field garner from the current treatments, however harmful and damaging they may be.

    Meanwhile, the culture at large, as the book rightly points out, is totally unreceptive to hearing about the incurable, lifelong disabilities that result from conventional breast cancer treatments, all of which are, in some measure, highly toxic and/or injurious. The prevailing dismissive attitude seems to be, “hey, at least you’re still alive.” Ironically, Ms. Keppa’s Comment serves as a remarkably good example of this very attitude, however excessively acrimonious it may be.

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  • Mike

    Wendy Raphael writes: “It’s not clear where the source of Anna Keppa’s anger truly lies…”

    It lies in the silly title and the silly picture tacked on to this story by the editors. I have to agree with her.

  • Dawn

    I am a two time breast cancer survivor, five years apart. I had the usual regime of chemo and radiation both times. Then I had transflap reconstruction and was in the hospital for 6 weeks due to complications.

    All the comments relating to being angry…..you have to be your own best source of information. Read everything you can get your hands on. Educate yourself. If you don’t, there’s no one to be angry at but yourself.

    I thank God every day that I am alive…..not painfree…..but alive and I WILL live to see my children grow up, graduate, marry and give me some beautiful grandbabies one day. And that, is living.

  • http://Health/BreastCancer Patricia Summers

    I am also a breast cancer survivor. I read the article by Dawn-Jan. 3rd.-09 and must say she is a woman after my own heart. The women who survive should thank God they are alive to-day. I count my blessings every day and can not thank God enough for bringing me through breast cancer. I had breast cancer in 1979 and I am now seventy-five years old. With God on your side you can overcome anything. Believe and you shall receive the bible says. May God bless all of the survivors.

    • Lyne

      You are an inspiration to me – I was just diagnosed with breast cancer on October 1, 2008, underwent surgery and will undergo chemo and radiation treatments soon… I believe that prayers and staying positive in this ordeal is the key to success… thank you for your great comments. I truly believe that I will live to be at least 75 years old!!! I also look forward to being a grandmother in April 2009!! God bless.

  • Pam

    I was diagnosed in October 2004 followed by surgery in November, chemo in December and radiation began in July 2005. I have never once regretted my decision to live – and I am living – not as well as I once was but still living. I have a wonderful support system with loving family and friends. However, the only side of survivorship I have ever witnessed was that of positive, cheerful, fight-the-fight women – I’m not saying that’s a bad thing – I too put on “a happy face” (or “suck it up”) when needed. BUT….. after I awhile I started to feel very alone as a survivor – I started to wonder if I was the only one that had suffered from post treatment illnesses or effects brought about by the treatments – and really started to doubt myself as a survivor – afterall if I’m not happy and positve all the time what the heck is wrong with me – why can’t I be like those other women. Even though my own physicians would say “this is normal – you’ll get there” I still couldn’t quite figure out why I never ran into another survivor feeling the same way. It was my sister-in-law (also a survivor) and brother that brought this book to my attention over the Christmas holidays. What a gift to find out that I’m not alone!

  • http://www.sagemedia.ca Chanie Pritchard

    We all put on a tough front, each for our own reasons I suppose.

    I went through chemo in my early twenties, and to this day still suffer from the side-effects. In many ways, though, I’ve always felt as if I’ve gotten away with something I shouldn’t have.

    In general, I don’t like to talk about it.

    Your doctors give you the urgent, need-to-know information. Everything else is up to you. I am a relentless researcher, so I educated myself about the long term effects of chemotherapy early on. I haven’t complained at length about them, but I don’t feel it would be productive or helpful.

    There is a place for this book. It will help people who don’t understand what they’re going through. Doctors dismissing patient concerns is another issue entirely, and is certainly not limited to cancer issues.

    In the end, the value of being here living my life far overshadows the lasting side effects. Every time I begin to feel sorry for myself, I just think “well, I could be dead” – that usually snaps me out of it. After all, I do love my life.

  • Dorothy

    I didn’t read the original article, but saw the letters to the editor at the vet’s office this morning. Five years ago I had the ‘full catastrophe’ treatment for breast cancer in addition to a tramflap which failed and ended up getting a latismus dorsi flap in the end because of a life-threatening infection. My longterm complications are many body scars and a mastectomy scar that even doctors look at and say, “Oh, my God.” I have more fatigue, less ability to handle stress, poorer concentration. One of the worst things is that my body thermostat simply doesn’t work in hot weather and I suffer excruciating prickly heat. I haven’t really talked about this with anyone, but my life changed forever with the illness and the treatments. It’s a different life I lead now, and some things are better, but other things are irretrievably lost to me. I have a supportive doctor, but like many doctors she simply doesn’t know the long term efffects of drugs and radiation on the body. Breast cancer touches the heart, the mind, the body and the soul. And it’s not over when the treatment ends.

    • Dawn

      Dorothy, I too had the tramflap surgery with a side of horrific infections. Although I do have reconstructed breasts, they are riddled with scarring and tissue loss from the infections. I am in constant pain from the tramflap surgery, and I’m told it will never go away. I sincerely wish that plastic surgeons wouldn’t recommend this surgery…..it causes far too many complications to be safe. It’s even embarrassing to go to a walk-in clinic for a chest cold. One look at my chest and doctors back away.

      God bless your strength Dorothy.

  • http://BMTS Barry Parker

    I am a male who had colon-cancer two years ago with resectioning and chemotherapy. I can’t say I am happy reading this info on later problems but it does make me realize that I am not an “oddball”
    I have had “chemobrain” symptoms, sores in the mouth, fatigue and one I didn’t see any where else;
    my feet are frozen all the time, requiring socks in bed. So it isn’t just breast cancer treatments that bring on these effects. Interesting mention of accupuncture. I used it to treat the usual stomach upset caused by chemo. It was very helpful. The only upsetting thing was our wonderful Federal Income Tax
    boys and girls (after such a long time) just this month sent me a notice to pay more taxes as they would not recognize accupuncture treatment as a deduction. Thanks guys. It is important to know we are not alone, not “oddballs”

  • laurie j hall

    hi am a cancer patient.i was dig. in 2005, and it has returned 3 times .iam in stage 4 now.what i wd like to ask is mine had shrunk durin this last chemo .we did pet scan and it was half size,so he (doc) thought 4 more treat. it wd be gone but it grew. has anyone had it grow while doin chemo?now they are wantin to do more radiation, i had 33 treatments in 2005 and was told i couldnt have anymore in chest area now they think it worth risk. has anyone had a experience like this ? help

  • laurie j hall

    has anyone reading this had cancer grow while dn chemo?

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  • Linda Bergeron

    What an article and a number of comments – I am a breast cancer survivor – but have I survived ? Yes in the way that I am alive – no – in the quality of life – 13 years ago I had chemo and radiation and then one year off and then 5 years tamoxifan and now am in my 6th year of Femara……. Also because of the treatments I now have a hypo thyroid problem, a heart problem that happened since and also have to take anti deprssants for the continual menopausal symptoms that I live daily – Life sucks – so many negative physical changes and my libido is non existant BUT

    I choose to live and to enjoy my life – I choose to surround myself with those things that I truly love and my mental attitude has changed and I believe that knowing what I know now I am a better person, however, a less healthy one. I realize that because of the treatment choices I made 13 years ago and afterwards that I am still here and I also realize that is a blessing and to complain would be just subjecting myself to more hell.

  • Linda Bergeron

    I have 4 shih tzu's – they are my loves – I have a wondeful husband who is amazing to me and two granddaughters that are like children to me and I watch them after school 5 days/week and so the combination of these and doing for myself – I am currently paying off 15 weeks that I took in 18 months to Cuba on vacation – that was me realizing a dream and I try to make every day count.

    If I cannot help someone in one day then it has not been productive for me – however small that help is…….THIS IS MY WAY AND IT WORKS !

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  • Linda Bergeron

    We have survived a potentially deadly disease and now we have to deal with the after effects that are NOT easy to deal with and by being kind to ourselves and finding out what it is that is most important to us, we will be able to live a happier life and it is by giving that we receive……WE HAVE TO LEARN TO GIVE TO OURSELVES – something most women never learn to do…….We are taught at a young age that we have to do it all and to be a good mother, wife, employee and have a clean house and be involved in the school and sport lives of our kids – YIKES – NO MORE – SAY – ME FIRST and too bad about the rest………….

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  • Janet

    Contiuing my post…. No worries it is not much longer lol,lol. It is difficult when people don't understand that once your cancer is gone your in the clear that you should be feeling fine and be the way you once were before cancer. They treat you like some magic wand was waved over you to be instantly the same again as you were. I live with the side affects of the radiation treatments. Waves of fatigue often but I am here and alive and I am grateful and thankful to God and to the doctors and The Cancer Agency for their amazing care they gave me. The side affects are a reminder to me how precious life really is and it is never to be taken for granted and to enjoy every moment the best that I can.No, I am definately not the same person as before. My energy level sucks but I make do no matter what. WHY?… Because I am here and I can and so can you. It could have been worse, I could have succumbed to this dreaded disease like so many already have. I am one of the lucky ones. God Bless all. XO :) Janet

    • Janet

      Oh one more thing to add. I have osteo arthritis in all 3 compartments in my right knee and getting knee surgery in the left knee because of the dog pulled on the leash lol. My body went with her and my knee stayed behind. I have a torn miniscis and a piece of cartilage floating around poking at my knee. As for my right knee nothing can be done until I am old enough to get a new knee and I stand at work all day. I keep active as much as I can and I am doing ok amazingly to say. I am a fighter and I will continue to be a fighter no matter what life throws at me. I have indeed have been thrown a few curve balls. It was very difficult to lose my son, it took me a long time to heal from that and I did and I am ok.I still cry and have bad days from that. I try to think of the parents that lose their children to abduction and don't know where they are. Their childs picture is on a milk carton or elsewhere. To me that has to be the most difficult to go through. At least I know what happened to my child and I have closure from it. These parents don't and my heart goes out to them. It was actually easier to get through cancer than my son dying. I was terrified when I heard the cancer word, don't get me wrong but you never expect to outlive your child. To me that was the most difficult to go through in my life. I wish everyone the best. Please try to enjoy your life every moment of each day no matter what the quality is of it from your side affects. You don't know tomorrow. We are the lucky ones to have survived period.So many have not and we very well could have been amongst them. I am sure many of the not so lucky ones would have loved to gladly traded places with any one of us to stay alive side affects and all. I am not trying to be disrespectful to anyone here at all but put yourself in the not so lucky ones shoes for a moment knowing you are going to die and don't want to. Think about it…… Take care everyone and I wish you the very best. XO Janet

      • EDD

        I don't know where you live or how old you are but the idea about waiting till you are 60 or 70 for a knee operation is no longer valid. I had mine done before 60 and a lady friend in her early 50s.

  • Miss Daisy :)

    Think about this…….More women DIE ..from LUNG CANCER.. then breast and colon cancer combined….NON SMOKERS !!!

    I am one of them, still living and hoping I will not become another statistic……I had a lobectomy…and one year free of new sites…

    Please ladies…..have a chest e-xray…… Miss Daisy :)

  • Yvonne Kafka

    I should be shot for crushing pink but it is what it is .
    For the brave ladies who dare to tell their story that it was not a pretty pink kudos to you it's the only way to start a change and we are still dying from breast cancer.
    What I was not prepared for on my cancer marathon to beating the enemy was being attacked by some of the team players put out by the medical field when I presented them with questions and wanted to think and look outside the box.
    I managed to keep face and being from a family of 14 sibblings I knew how to behave in a battle field.
    Breast cancer treatment and recovery should not be a one size fits all. Every womens breast is as unique as her DNA and her fingerprints.
    Ladies lets be open and kind to each other and if your cancer journay went smooth and all was done to perfection well good for you but on the other hand do not belittle and condem the women like me whose journey was a living hell.
    Ladies get those mammograms and educate yourself of the enemy,save your life.

  • Marta B

    I had breast cancer twice, one on each breast. The first time I had both radiation teraphy and chemo. The seond time I opted for mastectomy followed by chemoterapy treatment. and reconstruction, The second time it was easier than the first time, they came up with a medication that prevented me to get sick after chemo. I worked through both incidents, all through chemoterapy, Two weeks after my mastectomy I was up and about going to work and taking it slowly but being very active never the less. A month and a half later II went to the gym some three times a week. I am fully reoverd now and I ;ve been like that for the 7 months out of the 12 since I've been diagnosed.. I had my first hair cut 2 weeks ago. I live in USA and I cannot affort to complain too much, and the truth is I don't have many reasons why.. I guess I am one of the lucky ones.

  • tonybrinks

    you know what, i have crohn's. had multiple surgeries and suffer many side effects of the surgery and the illness that is still with me after 35 years. wanna hear more about it? NO, of course you don't. why would you? get real people, who wants to hear about it. you figure because it was cancer you deserve to be heard. well how about some awareness for other illnesses. cancer, you get sympathy, crohn's, you get embarrassed.

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