'This is my destiny'

How one man gave up everything—his family, his friends, his job—to spread the Truth about 9/11

by Jonathan Kay on Monday, May 16, 2011 9:10am - 157 Comments
'This is my destiny'

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In Among the Truthers, his wide-ranging look at conspiracist thinking on everything from the 9/11 attacks to the causes of autism, journalist Jonathan Kay is less interested in what the conspiracies proclaim than in examining how modern society lost its “consensual view of reality.” As part of that effort, Kay considers the various paths individual conspiracists have followed, and in this excerpt relates his interactions with one very persuasive truther, a popular speaker on the 9/11 conspiracy convention circuit, in the grip of a mid-life crisis.

Of all the truther headliners I’ve seen, the very best is Richard Gage, a balding, mild-mannered, middle-aged architect who heads up a California-based group called Architects & Engineers for 9/11 Truth. I’ve heard Gage speak three times in three different cities. At each event, the response was rapturous. At a 2009 lecture in Montreal, his crowd sat mesmerized as he spoke for three straight hours—on a night when the Montreal Canadiens were contesting a playoff game, no less. At a speech in New York City a few months later, the audience burst into a spontaneous chant of “Ri-chard! Richard!” Blushing and grinning like an earnest, overgrown schoolboy, Gage blurted out: “Your enthusiasm knocks my socks off!”

His singular focus—laboriously examined in a 600-slide PowerPoint presentation he trots out at every opportunity—is the precise sequence of events leading to the collapse of the World Trade Center buildings. Avoiding speculation on the Pentagon attacks and the machinations of the Bush White House is critical to the mission of Architects & Engineers for 9/11 Truth, he says. “We’re building and technical professionals,” Gage tells his audiences. “We’re not conspiracy theorists.” Gage inevitably elicits emotional gasps and shouts with his slide show. In Montreal, a couple sitting behind me seemed particularly moved. “How can those murderers sleep at night after what they’ve done?” one exclaimed. (She wasn’t talking about al-Qaeda.) Even my own guest, a conservative-minded 65-year-old woman, seemed transfixed, falling silent at points where I expected she’d be chortling and rolling her eyes.

Before beginning his presentation in Montreal, Gage had polled the crowd on their views. Five people, including me and my guest, said they believed the “official theory” of 9/11. Ten others said they were “unsure.” Everyone else—about 200 people—said they believed the WTC came down through “controlled demolition.” Once Gage had finished, he conducted a second poll. This time, when he asked how many people supported the “official theory,” mine was the only hand raised. Shocked, I cast a glance at the friend sitting beside me.

After three hours in a room with Richard Gage, she’d changed her vote to “not sure.”

A few months later, when I sat down with Gage at a Starbucks in the upscale bedroom community of Lafayette, Calif., I wasn’t sure what to expect. Gage is affable and disarming when surrounded by admirers. But like many cultish true believers, he can become emotionally erratic when his views are probed. During our preceding email exchange, he’d interpreted one of my questions as an “indirect threat” on his life—and furiously threatened to cancel our interview.

But Gage arrived in a calm, friendly mood. After buying himself a soy latte, he sat with me on a bench outside the café for two hours, patiently describing his transformation from workaday commercial architect to 9/11 Truth evangelist. It was in March 2006 that his life changed, Gage tells me. He was in his car just after lunch, fighting traffic en route to a construction meeting. Bored, he flipped on KPFA 94.1 FM, a listener-supported station out of Berkeley—“to hear what the communists were talking about.”

Up to that point in life, Gage recalls, he’d been just your average workaday architect, with a wife, child, and a strong Republican voting record. “I believed strongly in America,” he tells me. “I believed everything was okay. When Colin Powell was giving his Iraq evidence at the United Nations [in March 2003], I was cheering him on. I wanted us to go to war in Iraq. I wanted to find the WMD. I was completely on board. I was the poster child for George W. Bush’s foreign policy.”

But all that would change.

The voice he heard on KPFA’s airwaves belonged to David Ray Griffin, a retired Claremont School of Theology professor who’s since become a full-time 9/11 Truth activist. “Griffin was logical and methodical—almost grandfatherly,” Gage remembers. “He was talking about the 118 [World Trade Center] first-responders—information that had just come out in 2005—who said they’d heard explosions and flashes of light, beams dripping with molten metal, all amid the collapse of 80,000 tons of structural steel. It hit me like a two-by-four. How come I’d never heard of any of this? I was shocked. I had to pull my car off the road to absorb it all. I knew I’d be late for the meeting. But I didn’t care.”

Within days, Gage was proselytizing the Truth to everyone who would listen—his family, his friends, even his architectural colleagues at the Walnut Creek, Calif., firm of Akol & Yoshii. He even began setting up booths at American Institute of Architects meetings, where he’d play video footage of the World Trade Center buildings coming down, and invite skeptical onlookers to sign his AE-911Truth petition, which demands a “truly independent investigation” of the 9/11 attacks. Catcalls and mockery were common, Gage remembers—but he didn’t care.

In 2007, Gage cut back on his day job—designing the Summerlin Center Mall in Las Vegas—so that he could spend more time on his activism. Then, in 2008, the project went bankrupt amid the nosediving real estate market, and Gage suddenly was unemployed. Looking back, he says, it was a blessing in disguise: “Making money for large corporations like General Growth was a lot less fulfilling than bringing the truth to people.” Since then, he’s become a full-time truther, just like Griffin, delivering 9/11 sermons at events across North America.

Gage will admit that he’s paid a price. Friends who failed to embrace his missionary zeal have drifted away. So has his wife, who he said had difficulty accepting his “dark” vision. Gage now lives by himself in a home office near Berkeley, paying his bills with the modest amounts he earns through donations. Yet when Gage discusses all this, he seems curiously upbeat—almost euphoric—like a Benedictine monk who’s happily renounced the material encumbrances of secular life. Although he doesn’t talk much about his world before 9/11 Truth, he clearly remembers it as empty and unsatisfying.

“I would rather die speaking the truth than live in a police state, which is what 9/11 set the groundwork for,” he tells me in a final, slightly manic flourish. “I can’t have my son—or grandchildren—ask me, ‘What did you do to stop it?’—and I say, ‘I tried to talk to some architects but they wouldn’t listen.’

“I’ve never been happier. I feel blessed, in fact. This is my destiny, my mission. I’ve lost my career. I’ve lost my marriage. I’ve lost my house. But I’m working with patriots, spreading the truth about what’s happened to their country. What more could I ask?”

Excerpted from Among the Truthers by Jonathan Kay, Copyright 2011, by permission of HarperCollins Publishers Ltd. All rights reserved.

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  • http://www.facebook.com/gary.lawson7 Gary Lawson

    I resent the tone of your article.

  • http://www.facebook.com/gary.lawson7 Gary Lawson

    I resent the tone of your article.

  • Anonymous

    Jonathan Kay lost me when he claimed in his interview with Steve Paiken the other day that the word “neo-con” is anti-semitic. What can you say in the face of that kind of paranoia? 

  • Anonymous

    Jonathan Kay lost me when he claimed in his interview with Steve Paiken the other day that the word “neo-con” is anti-semitic. What can you say in the face of that kind of paranoia? 

  • Anonymous

    Here’s something else. In the introduction to this article, Richard Gage is refered to as a “conspiracist.” Huh? He’s not even a “conspiracy theorist.” His interest is in how building 7 fell. He has never (to my knowledge) proposed a theory beyond that the thermate dust and near-freefall speed of the collapse, as well as the evidence of foreknowledge of the building’s collapse, can best be explained by everyday practices of controlled demolition, rather than by the fires that burned in the building that day.

    On the one hand, Jonathan Kay may have something in his references (not in this article, but in his debate with Gage on Paiken’s program the other day) that it’s better not to go “down the rabbit hole” of questioning the official line on 9/11. It really could suck the life out of you, if you let it. And he’s right, too (in my experience) that a lot of the actors in the Truth movement match a version of middle-aged men having a midlife crisis or showing a messianic streak (and willing to throw to the winds much that previously fulfilled them).

    On the other hand, and this question would have to be directed right at Kay, is it really worth living a life “top-side” (not down the rabbit hole) if that life requires you live a lie? A lot of midlife crises have been spawned by a negative answer to that question.

  • Anonymous

    Here’s something else. In the introduction to this article, Richard Gage is refered to as a “conspiracist.” Huh? He’s not even a “conspiracy theorist.” His interest is in how building 7 fell. He has never (to my knowledge) proposed a theory beyond that the thermate dust and near-freefall speed of the collapse, as well as the evidence of foreknowledge of the building’s collapse, can best be explained by everyday practices of controlled demolition, rather than by the fires that burned in the building that day.

    On the one hand, Jonathan Kay may have something in his references (not in this article, but in his debate with Gage on Paiken’s program the other day) that it’s better not to go “down the rabbit hole” of questioning the official line on 9/11. It really could suck the life out of you, if you let it. And he’s right, too (in my experience) that a lot of the actors in the Truth movement match a version of middle-aged men having a midlife crisis or showing a messianic streak (and willing to throw to the winds much that previously fulfilled them).

    On the other hand, and this question would have to be directed right at Kay, is it really worth living a life “top-side” (not down the rabbit hole) if that life requires you live a lie? A lot of midlife crises have been spawned by a negative answer to that question.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002372705878 Doug Rand

    Gawd another secular religion to go with global warmism. 

  • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_D2OQOD3QB6E45OWOBASE5HT2VI Graham

    Personal putdowns of Mr. Gage.
    No engagement of arguments.
    Generalizing by calling people truthers.

    If Kay knew anything about Richard Gage and his organization, he would know that they don’t subscribe to any conspiracy theories. They are focusing on science, that is what will see them through all these hysterical and malicious attacks.

    Read and educate yourself, come to your own conclusions.
    Mr. Kay’s article is a persuasion piece and he is not asking you to think for yourself..

  • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_D2OQOD3QB6E45OWOBASE5HT2VI Graham

    Personal putdowns of Mr. Gage.
    No engagement of arguments.
    Generalizing by calling people truthers.

    If Kay knew anything about Richard Gage and his organization, he would know that they don’t subscribe to any conspiracy theories. They are focusing on science, that is what will see them through all these hysterical and malicious attacks.

    Read and educate yourself, come to your own conclusions.
    Mr. Kay’s article is a persuasion piece and he is not asking you to think for yourself..

    • Albury Smith

      If they’re so focused on science, Graham, why do they get caught lying so often?  

    • Richard D. Brinkman

      Graham- In Kay’s book he refers to all 9/11 truthers from David Ray Griffin, Richard Gage on down to anyone daring to question the government on 9/11 as ‘ Cranks” .

      Also almost every news article that has run in the National Post over the past 3 years ( Kay – as managing editor)  has compare people who question 9/11 as anti Semitics (JEW HATERS) . That is an out-right hate filled attack against all citizens who question the government with any controversial matter.

      Racism exists everywhere including some who question 9/11 and in the Corporate Editorial Policies of the National Post – I personally contacted Dr Bob Friedman President Winnipeg’s Jewish Federation ( same city CanWest head office was located)  and asked Bob, how can we work together to counter racism in the 9/11 truth movement and the media… I had a mission as one 9/11 truther to do my part confronting racism.

      He was not interested in helping- he quoted- “there is no Jew in the world who would help the 9/11 truth movement”…

      He’s wrong cause there are many Jews interested in 9/11 truth just as there are many 9/11 truthers who hate racism .

       It looks like the National Posts demonizing 9/11 truthers over the years using the anti Semitic card has done it’s damage but you can’t hide the truth about 9/11 forever- Too many people including my neighbors and friends who are Jews, Muslims, Christians and atheists love the truth … No one likes to be lied to and be deceived by those who sow seed of deception- including people who work for Corporate media.

      PS Kay- if you read this- please stop calling people who question the government anti Semitic- it’s full of spite, hate and hurtful to me, my friends and others who question the government on 9/11. It’s insult to Canada’s Jewish community as a whole that you would carelessly compare 9/11 truthers as holocaust deniers .

      • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_D2OQOD3QB6E45OWOBASE5HT2VI Graham

         I am a jew that questions 9-11.

        • Albury Smith

          Why haven’t you questioned Richard Gage, when there’s infinitely more reason to do so? 

      • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_D2OQOD3QB6E45OWOBASE5HT2VI Graham

         I am a jew that questions 9-11.

      • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_D2OQOD3QB6E45OWOBASE5HT2VI Graham

         I am a jew that questions 9-11.

      • http://pulse.yahoo.com/_D2OQOD3QB6E45OWOBASE5HT2VI Graham

         I am a jew that questions 9-11.

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    WTC 7 is an obvious demolition, here it is even circled in red for you.

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    WTC 7 is an obvious demolition, here it is even circled in red for you.

    • Albury Smith

      The link to your malarkey doesn’t work either.

    • Albury Smith

      The link to your malarkey doesn’t work either.

    • Albury Smith

      The link to your malarkey doesn’t work either.

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    WTC 7 is an obvious demolition, here it is even circled in red for you.

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    Jonathan “Ad Hominem Attack” Kay doesn’t want you to see this as his teammates were caught on 911 “documenting the event”

    Mossad Agents Caught on 911
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3aKj6uJ5Mt4

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    Jonathan “Ad Hominem Attack” Kay doesn’t want you to see this as his teammates were caught on 911 “documenting the event”

    Mossad Agents Caught on 911
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3aKj6uJ5Mt4

    • Albury Smith

      Would you please point out some of Jonathan Kay’s ad hominem attacks on Mr. Gage?

    • Albury Smith

      Would you please point out some of Jonathan Kay’s ad hominem attacks on Mr. Gage?

    • Albury Smith

      Would you please point out some of Jonathan Kay’s ad hominem attacks on Mr. Gage?

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    Jonathan “Ad Hominem Attack” Kay doesn’t want you to see this as his teammates were caught on 911 “documenting the event”

    Mossad Agents Caught on 911
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3aKj6uJ5Mt4

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    “If the future of reasonable discourse lies in the hands of the likes of Jonathan Kay then we’re doomed, his book is absolutely an advertisement for anti-reasoning, anti evidence , name calling and dehumanization ” ~ Barry Zwicker
    Well said,
    Jonathan Kay is a joke who should stick to writing Mossad Fairy Tales instead of defending them.

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    “If the future of reasonable discourse lies in the hands of the likes of Jonathan Kay then we’re doomed, his book is absolutely an advertisement for anti-reasoning, anti evidence , name calling and dehumanization ” ~ Barry Zwicker
    Well said,
    Jonathan Kay is a joke who should stick to writing Mossad Fairy Tales instead of defending them.

  • http://www.facebook.com/djball Ball Loves-Kush

    “If the future of reasonable discourse lies in the hands of the likes of Jonathan Kay then we’re doomed, his book is absolutely an advertisement for anti-reasoning, anti evidence , name calling and dehumanization ” ~ Barry Zwicker
    Well said,
    Jonathan Kay is a joke who should stick to writing Mossad Fairy Tales instead of defending them.

  • Anonymous

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